Queer Fish!

It’s been a while we talked. It’s been a while I met her. It’s been really a long time we chatted and laughed together. She was my life, she was everything and her enigma was for me and me only. May be it’s my color she didn't like or it can be even my weight but sometimes A tree on its own is just a tree, grass is just a grass, a cow is just a cow and a sun is just a light source. If you combine all you get a miraculous view of a cow grazing in meadow in shadow and sunlight peeking through the trees! A whole landscape is lot more than just the sum of its parts…! When you put them all together it can be magic…..!! But this magic has limitations, not everyone is lucky to feel and see this. I feel sorry for them, they are just visually challenged. She always said she can’t decide on her own, it’ll be her parent’s decision to take, but now I feel it was just a hiding wall behind which she hides her truth. I had some friends who knew for who am I, still didn’t have a ch...

I am a bit changed!! I was wrong, wrong about her, wrong about myself! I thought I can be angry with her, fake….so fake, I can’t even imagine happiness without her; and I cannot be angry with my happiness! She didn’t ignore me; she was with me all the time just like the light and wind. They are far disparate from each other, busy doing their work but always together. She was hurt by me, she had severe cold that day when she read it; my post earlier, she was inapt to speak properly yet she called me. She sounded so sweet, her voice solaced my soul. I felt like standing on edge of earth in pure, cold and fresh zephyr touching and passing by. She felt for me, a sudden surge of feelings. She messaged me sorry, she was sorry if she has hurt me! Kindness a greatest queenly attribute she possessed. Before posting that article I thought many times, my mind was in quandary to post it. But I did at last, it was time. I wanted her views; her feelings about me. I was sure she won’t like my ...

I don't know why wrote such a childish poem, it does not even rhyme well sometimes but your feelings are such which you can't hide. I am missing her on this very special day. But i imagined a happy end of our story and imagined how life will change a year after year......this time please bear it with me people!!! (and i know the poem's childish, but this is what i felt today!!!) You are the one, The one n only one, One love of my life, The story I’ve spun!!! Two & only two, We n only us, Want to be together, Itnahi, aur kya bus!!! Three n only three, With you only you, I wanna grow, My family tree!!! Four n only four We two n our, Two kids for sure!! Five & it’s almost five, We are busy in our lives, Still I’ll love you so much, Will take you on a drive, Six n only six It was your b’day & I didn’t greet, You are upset, & I am the o...

वे ग वेगळी मन, जगावेगळी नाती, तुटला विश्वास एकदा, कि होतात मन कोती... मैत्री मध्ये कधी कधी, होतात भांडण छोटी मोठी, बाहेर  खूप  चिडलो  तरीही  मानात्न  असतात खोटी, अ शी मैत्री फक्त एकदाच होते झालाच  भांडण  तर  स्वताला  सांभाळून  घेते , पुन्हा एकदा त्यांच्या सुरु होतात भेटी ... वेडे ते दोघ, त्यांना कळत नसत.. कारण या तर असतात रेशीमगाठी आ युष्यातले काही वळण तो चुकून जातो, तिचा  विचार  करयला  विसरून  जातो ती  रुसते , खूप  दुखावल्या  जाते .. तो तिला  खूप  समजावतो  पण ... पण  फुटक्या  नशिबाच वाडग  त्याच्या वाट्याला  येते! त्या ला  अजूनही  तिचीच  वाट  असते , आशेच्या  भरवशावर  तो पुन्हा एकदा घर बांधतो पण तिच्या आयुष्यातली वाट, आता त्याच्या कडे वळणार नसते, आ युष्याच्या शेवटा  पर्यंत, तो तेवढ्याच आशेन तिची वाट बघत असतो, ती तेवढ्याच ठाम पाने त्याच्या विश्वासाला नाक...

Oxford dictionary states the miracle as: an extraordinary event attributed to some supernatural agency. We human beings have a peculiar habit of adaptability. Whatever we feel, see, touch in our regular life is taken to be granted.  Our belief on science made this easy to understand and take these things as granted. I mean tell me one person who before going to bed thinks that what will happen if sun will not be rising from tomorrow! Who thinks why we feel the heat! Who thinks why we fall in love?? If we look around us, you will find many miracles happening. Sun rises in the same direction we have known and sets like everyday it does, just as we want it to. Water always flow from higher to lower side. We haven’t seen the cold yet but we do feel it in winter. You will need more than billion lives to understand these games of nature. But one thing I am very sure about is, everyone on this land do feel love in his life. Maybe it’ll be for your parents, for your friends, f...

Put your hands in the water watch the water flow put your hands in the light and watch your skin glow for once ask your heart, if you truly love me? and I will let you go!, Put your feet in this mud, feel the earth heal.. get your hands in the air.. and feel the wind blow.. for once say me the words, and I will let you go..! Put your heart in mine, and feel the love grow, take my hands in yours, and walk past the slope, for once hear my love.... and I will let you go!!! Put yourself in those mornings I dreamed of, and feel the warmth of my presence, hug me tight sometimes, and watch unfold a rose, let me live my dream, till that heartbeat goes, for once if I broke your heart, then plz let it go! Put yourself in my shoes, and only once, just once... consider my views, even then let us be foes, but for once, just once.. ask your heart to love me.... and I will let you go!!!

I n the earlier part I told you about our first meet. After this my life suddenly changed,  unexpectedly love stories felt so interesting, all those problems they faced felt like mine, sleepless nights started coming, whole day I started doing nothing….all that Bollywood kind of stuff started happening with me! I was totally into her. I decided then that she’s the one, I mean come on…I just love her ( at the age of 14 these were the only things I imagined to be in love!! ). 10 th Board exams came in March, till then we met sometimes when I was there in Nagpur on Sundays but no complications, one thing was clear by then she was oblivious about me, we were so childish then! Whenever I saw her my smile was so big that u can put three Pani puries in my mouth at once! I was falling freely in the endless well called love!!! B oard exams started we were busy, and after one month we all were going to be free birds for 4 full months. I wrote my last word in last paper and handled it...