Queer Fish!

After the exam I planned to write a lot…I planned to update my blog everyday! But then I gave it a second thought…writing is not about updating your blog, or not about writing something everyday…but writing about what you feel, letting your heart flow through the wordy ocean that keeps summoning the tsunamis of your emotions.  I went to the college recently to collect my provisional degree, of course without uniform or bag or anything which I would have cared about if had been coming to college for attending it. When I entered the gate the guard gave me a recognizing smile, I said “bhaiaa aaj clg uniform ke liye bahar khade nai karoge??” and he answered, actually stated that made me feel different…. “ Ab aap bade hogaye bhau, ab aap clg me padhne thodehi aye honge!!!” (You are a pass out now sir; you won’t be studying in the college anymore!). That made me feels something rarely different. I was in hurry so I didn’t bother to think about it long, I waved him a “ram ram” and went...

It’s been a while we talked. It’s been a while I met her. It’s been really a long time we chatted and laughed together. She was my life, she was everything and her enigma was for me and me only. May be it’s my color she didn't like or it can be even my weight but sometimes A tree on its own is just a tree, grass is just a grass, a cow is just a cow and a sun is just a light source. If you combine all you get a miraculous view of a cow grazing in meadow in shadow and sunlight peeking through the trees! A whole landscape is lot more than just the sum of its parts…! When you put them all together it can be magic…..!! But this magic has limitations, not everyone is lucky to feel and see this. I feel sorry for them, they are just visually challenged. She always said she can’t decide on her own, it’ll be her parent’s decision to take, but now I feel it was just a hiding wall behind which she hides her truth. I had some friends who knew for who am I, still didn’t have a ch...

Oxford dictionary states the miracle as: an extraordinary event attributed to some supernatural agency. We human beings have a peculiar habit of adaptability. Whatever we feel, see, touch in our regular life is taken to be granted.  Our belief on science made this easy to understand and take these things as granted. I mean tell me one person who before going to bed thinks that what will happen if sun will not be rising from tomorrow! Who thinks why we feel the heat! Who thinks why we fall in love?? If we look around us, you will find many miracles happening. Sun rises in the same direction we have known and sets like everyday it does, just as we want it to. Water always flow from higher to lower side. We haven’t seen the cold yet but we do feel it in winter. You will need more than billion lives to understand these games of nature. But one thing I am very sure about is, everyone on this land do feel love in his life. Maybe it’ll be for your parents, for your friends, f...

L ove someone truly, and feel the joy of it, do some madness together sometime, when you friends meet ! E very night promises a new morning, every end comes with a new beginning, dream those beginnings, to fulfil them in mornings let us help people for their new starting ! F eel the wind as if you have wings, fill yourself with music to catch your life’s strings ! N ever judge else's thinking as it may sound oblivious for you, judge yourself for others, because not everyone but some do feel for you ! L ife is a gift, live it by sharing, we do come alone, but true meaning is in pairing. .! D ay dreaming is  fake, it’ll only show unreal reality,  hedonism needs life viewed by rationality ! T he everyday diary of common man, it may or may not be of glory, but it’s his autobiography, his film, his experiments with life, a miracle he lived like a story ! I t’s not about who you are, its not about who you will be, it was always about who you were, and ...

S tanding alone, on this bridge of possibilities, now my shoulders are bent, carrying this load of responsibilities. E veryday I try, to get out of this situation, but it makes me cry, that its out of my perception. I try to find, and calculate my stride, what I should leave behind, so I should feel pride. I don't have now a line to write, don't even know where this possibilities bridge bends, because now its out of my sight, but my experience tells me, this bridge never ends...!!!!

I don’t clearly remember in which grade I was then, but may be 8 th or 9 th I guess. I belong to Umrer, a town 50kilometers from our own city of oranges. What can you expect from me then, to have a girlfriend! Or to be smart enough to impress girls; I was totally unknown to all these facts till I met her.   But I am charismatic since childhood; I am a good speaker able to drown you in my wordy ocean. I was a famous guy in my school back then, Girls wanted to talk to me as I was one of the clever students scoring 90s in every exam.   But I still didn't find any allurement in the creatures called girls (back then!) . My grandma lives in Nagpur. So in every summer we used to come here (as now I live in Nagpur itself) . For me and my little sister reaching Nagpur meant reaching her home. My uncle too lived here with my grandma. He has a son and a daughter. My cousin sister and me, used to share boys and girls kind of stuff being of same age. So my knowledge about ...

Horizon, the line at which the earth’s surface and the sky appear to meet But still we think that there’s an end to it!! Some voyages are endless! We want some to be endless. But an impossible thing can never happen and things we believe impossible but happen are the only one’s possible at ends! Does our surrounding really have ends! Or we have ends! Is end a reality. I found some words, they signify end:  finish, terminate, conclude, close, complete, stop, cease, and expire. A thin yet enormous difference lies between these synonyms and the real word ‘end’. All these words are just mere names given to our daily life activities! Can you say earth will finish or terminate or expire! They all are just materialistic. You can only finish your work, or close your closet, or stop your movement. Can you cease, terminate, or conclude your soul. This materialistic world has many types of stops, many types of terminations, and an end too! But think of what...